I read. "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart". "Rely on, depend on the Lord." What is trust...exactly? How do I trust when there's....this? Is dependence negating any responsibility in the matter? More questions. Always questions.
"Lean not unto thine own understanding." "Do not depend on your own native instincts." Which instincts? The ones to fight for survival....for my rights....for convenience....for comfort? Even those instincts? Again....questions.
"In all thy ways acknowledge Him." "Have fellowship and intimacy with God in all of life." Fellowship? Intimacy? Now? In the midst of...this? My questions fade a bit. Is this the answer? The answer to all those relenting questions? Is questioning really just doubt? Neglecting to really fellowship, to really draw close?
I trust. I lean into Him. I commune with Him and His thoughts toward me. I cease talking and listen. All is peace. I look to the sky. The storm clouds are still there, threatening. But so is He. The questions are still there, niggling at the back of my mind. But so is He. The answer? It is right here as well. And it is He.

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